Saturday, November 14, 2009
I am sitting here thinking about how I felt a year ago when we brought Nayeli home from the hospital after 23 days of being in the ICN. I was so scared that there wasn't a nurse nearby. I also thought I was dreaming. I didn't think that day would ever come. I was so scared I wasn't going to bring Nayeli home at all. I was afraid of coming home empty handed. My fears are realities for other CDH famiies. I am having a hard time knowing that other CDH families don't get to bring their babies home. I think of those babies and families every night. As I kiss Nayeli every night we say a prayer for all of them. It's great to see her do things everyday and then it also hurts that the babies that have lost their battle to CDH won't have their mommy's and daddy's kissing them goodnight. I feel lucky, and then also guilty. I know I shouldn't feel guilty but it's hard not to. I had a very hard time sorting my feelings over this but Shane convinced me to write them. I am probably not making much sense but I guess it's more for me to write it out.
We thank God for Nayeli everyday. Nayeli is such a blessing she is a miracle!
Reflecting back on how we felt when we brought Nayeli home a year ago has me thinking back on how I felt. It was emotional and I will never forget.
Psalm 121:1-2 I lift up my eyes to the hills where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
There is no place like home November 15, 2008Visiting Dr. Maier and his staff at OB/Gyn a year ago during Nayeli's first Pediatrician checkupA year later visiting Dr. Maier and his staff.